I love this time of year. It's not just autumn, it's October. The nights are cooler and the days can still be pleasant. Halloween's approaching, and I like to watch as many scary movies as I possibly can during the month. Movies like H.H. Holmes: America's First Serial Killer, The Crow: City of Angel, The Haunting in Connecticut, Frankenstein Meets The Wolfman, The Wolfman (Original), Lost Boys 2: The Tribe, Dead Snow, Jeepers Creepers, Frankenstein (Original), The Crazies, Final Destination, Paranormal Activity, The Wolfman, and Candy Man, to name a few.
I guess I should say horror movies because not all of the above films were actually scary. Dead Snow was an amazingly entertaining foreign nazi zombie flick. H.H. Holmes was a documentary about America's 1st documented serial killer. Paranormal Activity sucked! (I hear the sequel's supposed to be good but the 1st one was a snore.) We have 2 more nights for horror films, although I don't restrict my horror film watching to only October it definitely is concentrated during these 31 days.
Tonight we're invited to a few different parties, we have to finalize our costume ideas, carve a pumpkin, and figure out when were going to go and see the niece & nephew's Halloween outfits, if we can. We should also probably clean up the apartment a little, on this wonderful October day.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
A New Look/A New Attitude?
So I decided to update my look a little here on the blog. Why? I don't know really. Maybe I'm bored. Maybe it's time for a change. Maybe I need to try something small in hopes of sparking some kind of creative spark!
What does that mean?
Lately I've sunken into a funk, I think it would be safe to say. I am not actively writing/developing any of my creative projects. I have been turning down prospective theatrical productions because I don't really feel motivated to make such a time-consuming commitment. I am choosing to stay home, mope around the apartment and be antisocial in many instances. I am consumed by an overwhelming feeling of pessimism, and self doubt. That is not who I am.
Well, okay, I've always been a bit of a negative person but it was amusing. I was creative in my naysaying. The title of this blog is all about my ability to laugh at the negative things in life, to mock the aspects of life that I take grievances with... but in a fun, hopefully entertaining way. Lately it has not been a productive trait of my personality.
It exhausting being this much of a bummer day in and day out. I shoot down ideas left and right. I already have an answer as to why certain resolutions are doomed to fail. I claim to be unaffected by certain goings on in my life but then bottle up the anger and resentment. I am always stressed out - about money, about debt, about my commute, about my future, about my family, about my lack of progress through this footrace we call life. I hate always feeling sorry for myself.
I am confused daily by the turn of events that have led me to my present. The decisions that I have made, and the obstacles that have arisen in the last few years hover around my head, and constantly buzz in my ear. I was going to be an actor. I was going to be a writer. I was going to be a teacher. I was going to have some stability. It turns out that I have unfinished manuscripts, unpaid bills, a blog and just as many questions as ever.
So I decided to change the appearance of my blog. It's a baby step but one hopefully taken in the right direction. I'm still not going to audition for productions that I am not interested in, but hopefully I will be more open to being approached by interested parties. Hopefully I will get of my butt, dust off some of my manuscripts and start sending them out again. Ideally, I will not let my life be defined by the +3 hours a day I spend sitting in traffic to get to my low-paying job or the hemorrhaging banks accounts, both of which could be cured by mysteriously winning the lottery one day.
In the meantime, I will work on slowly bettering my attitude. The motif of books you see in the background here is something that makes me smile. I love to read. I love books. I love the endless possibilities represented by an unopened book. Hopefully, this will help to inspire me in in these uninspiring times.
What does that mean?
Lately I've sunken into a funk, I think it would be safe to say. I am not actively writing/developing any of my creative projects. I have been turning down prospective theatrical productions because I don't really feel motivated to make such a time-consuming commitment. I am choosing to stay home, mope around the apartment and be antisocial in many instances. I am consumed by an overwhelming feeling of pessimism, and self doubt. That is not who I am.
Well, okay, I've always been a bit of a negative person but it was amusing. I was creative in my naysaying. The title of this blog is all about my ability to laugh at the negative things in life, to mock the aspects of life that I take grievances with... but in a fun, hopefully entertaining way. Lately it has not been a productive trait of my personality.
It exhausting being this much of a bummer day in and day out. I shoot down ideas left and right. I already have an answer as to why certain resolutions are doomed to fail. I claim to be unaffected by certain goings on in my life but then bottle up the anger and resentment. I am always stressed out - about money, about debt, about my commute, about my future, about my family, about my lack of progress through this footrace we call life. I hate always feeling sorry for myself.
I am confused daily by the turn of events that have led me to my present. The decisions that I have made, and the obstacles that have arisen in the last few years hover around my head, and constantly buzz in my ear. I was going to be an actor. I was going to be a writer. I was going to be a teacher. I was going to have some stability. It turns out that I have unfinished manuscripts, unpaid bills, a blog and just as many questions as ever.
So I decided to change the appearance of my blog. It's a baby step but one hopefully taken in the right direction. I'm still not going to audition for productions that I am not interested in, but hopefully I will be more open to being approached by interested parties. Hopefully I will get of my butt, dust off some of my manuscripts and start sending them out again. Ideally, I will not let my life be defined by the +3 hours a day I spend sitting in traffic to get to my low-paying job or the hemorrhaging banks accounts, both of which could be cured by mysteriously winning the lottery one day.
In the meantime, I will work on slowly bettering my attitude. The motif of books you see in the background here is something that makes me smile. I love to read. I love books. I love the endless possibilities represented by an unopened book. Hopefully, this will help to inspire me in in these uninspiring times.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Douchebaggery!
1st let me say that in my time I have, admittedly, probably been less than cordial to many people in my lifetime. It would also be fair to say that I have been known to act obnoxious or indecent on occasion. I've also wronged many people in various and numerous ways that I am not proud of BUT I am pretty certain that I would not be classifiable as a Douchebag. (Maybe I'm wrong.)
I do find that these days I am quick to anger at people I perceive as Douchbags! Whether they be deadbeat fathers, reality television 'celebrities', or even just your everyday joe schmoes yelling at the bank worker because the door scratched their arm on the way out I am instantly annoyed. I grit my teeth, and fight my rising blood pressure. It's funny. Why should it bother me so much.
I should develop a tougher skin. 'It's only fantasy football... I guess it's fine if you want to act like a douchebag.' 'Of course you should make Douchbag profile updates on your facebook page. I understand that you're delusional about your talent level, stage presence, and/or performances. Oh, and did I mention it's community theatre?' 'It's completely fine if you want to drive on the shoulder of the Beltway to the next exit because you can't be bothered to wait in the traffic jam caused by a fatal car accident with all of the rest of us working stiffs. That's not Douchey at all!'
Or maybe it is! Maybe you shouldn't! Maybe you should just up and die, Douchebags!
PS. A truck carrying a tank of water crashes, head on, with a truck carrying a tank of vinegar! ->DOUCHE<-
I do find that these days I am quick to anger at people I perceive as Douchbags! Whether they be deadbeat fathers, reality television 'celebrities', or even just your everyday joe schmoes yelling at the bank worker because the door scratched their arm on the way out I am instantly annoyed. I grit my teeth, and fight my rising blood pressure. It's funny. Why should it bother me so much.
I should develop a tougher skin. 'It's only fantasy football... I guess it's fine if you want to act like a douchebag.' 'Of course you should make Douchbag profile updates on your facebook page. I understand that you're delusional about your talent level, stage presence, and/or performances. Oh, and did I mention it's community theatre?' 'It's completely fine if you want to drive on the shoulder of the Beltway to the next exit because you can't be bothered to wait in the traffic jam caused by a fatal car accident with all of the rest of us working stiffs. That's not Douchey at all!'
Or maybe it is! Maybe you shouldn't! Maybe you should just up and die, Douchebags!
PS. A truck carrying a tank of water crashes, head on, with a truck carrying a tank of vinegar! ->DOUCHE<-
Sunday, October 10, 2010
10/10/10
It's the 10th day of the 10th month in the 10th year of the century. What does that mean? Well, that's a good question. There are several theories.
I, however, tend to think of it as a beautiful October day when there are several couples that we know exchanging wedding vows. Off the top of my head, I know of four different weddings happening today in Iowa, Illinois, Delaware and here in Maryland. Sara and I will soon be off to attend a friend's wedding up in Baltimore. So Congratulations to you all and I'm sure this day will always be remembered fondly.
I, however, tend to think of it as a beautiful October day when there are several couples that we know exchanging wedding vows. Off the top of my head, I know of four different weddings happening today in Iowa, Illinois, Delaware and here in Maryland. Sara and I will soon be off to attend a friend's wedding up in Baltimore. So Congratulations to you all and I'm sure this day will always be remembered fondly.
Saturday, October 02, 2010
That's Not Right
The landlords have the worst possible timing when it comes to having work done on the house. Maybe they're doing it on purpose now. I've mentioned before how they had the siding replaced when I was on Spring Break, and I was woken up every morning by the work men pounding on the house. A contractor was here for several days over the Summer when I was trying to relax. This morning at 8:30 or so I hear a chainsaw starting up. Workmen came to trim some of the trees on our property, at 8:30 in the morning! I'm baffled by the pattern.
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